Wow the lengthes we go too hurt the ones we supposedly loved at one point astonishes me. I ask you the ones out there that read this now, if you loved someone even at one point what would possess you to want to make them hurt if they have hurt you?? I guess I ask cause I dont understand, I am not out to hurt anyone if its done then I leave the person alone to move on and try and forget them. No matter the fact that they may fill my every thought or infiltrate my very dreams. I still let them go on and hope for them the very best and that they are happy and smiling. But then there are those that chose to try and hurt more, why you may ask, well thats a good question. You may hurt me more an more and if it makes you feel good to hurt and make me pain for your enjoyment then I only pity you. I pity you that you dont know love nor did you ever and the life you chose to live is an empty one.

An it was a woman I know that told me once that the best way to forget was to stay numb and too stay numb she drank you know what, she was right. So if I am getting my drink on its because I know not any other way to stay numb.

You can be mean and vindictive but whatever it is you are trying to fill to make you feel better wont be filled, it will never go away, love is about forgiveness, love is about letting someone go even if you dont want too an wishing them all the good in the world, love is about smiling for the one you love when they find another even though it may be through tear filled eyes. I love you an thats all I have to say about that.