Have tried to deny the fact that im still in love, but in doing so have denied the truth. My heart is not mine to give an even if it were, I dont know that I would want to give it to anyone else. I try to pull away and pretend Im ok, when really Im not. Its not from lack of options or of trying, its from lack of my heart an the other half of that which made me whole. I sit and listen to songs that keep the memories fresh in my mind, some would say Im torturing myself or that I cant let go. I could let go if I "WANTED" too and if torturing myself is trying to relive times that were some of the best in my life then so be it! Yeah it would be easier to just walk away, build some walls, live in lust, and try and forget, yes it would be easier! But well I just dont think I want it so easy anymore! I love being in love and you know what ..................................come what may!