As I sit and roll through a day of culminating thoughts, lingering memories, unanswered questions, and unexplainable emotions. I begin to fall endlessly back into myself looking, searching, demanding an answer. Screaming in silence at the utter bleak cold that answers back.

Where do we go to find these answers? Where do we look to see the truth of it all and our role in it? Some say look within...................................... but when you come face to face with an empty shell starring back at you from the mirror of your soul, you will find no answer there. Some say look to God and his wisdom............................... but what if your faith is weakening and God doesnt answer?? Some say everything happens for a reason.......................... really, please explain because if theres a reason it escapes my attention. How many of these BS, emotionally handicapped, mentally stunted, explanations are there out there that acually make one bit of rational sense??

Well with all that said I am going back to an afternoon of relentless disillusion, followed by a night of shameless consuption of some wildly concocted dreams.