I was reading a friends comment today and it made me think "Is love blind?" does love not look toward the future and its implications?? Does it jump in carelessly and hope the water is deep enough? Well her comment which I read made alot of sense and here it is

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth."

I enjoyed this small but inciteful quip an made me think, I would have to agree that "Love" at least true love is among the purest of feelings. It is a total giving up of being one person and becoming one out of two. I would say a joining of souls, but this would be wrong because true love can only come from one soul that has been incomplete and searching for that which would complete it. So if you do find that feeling of being complete, true love, or just the feeling of being home. Hold on to it, forever if need be, and know that you were lucky enough to at least know that it does exsist, even if you only felt it for a short time.

Two songs that seem to talk to me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5mmtDfd0uY&feature=related http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q-8ez6dGao8 enjoy

Theres a moment that we just know an cant explain its reasoning, nor do we want too we just know. We know we arent alone, we never were, we simply had not come home. Where is home, is it a physical place where you walk through a picket fence and hang your hat upon the rack as you walk in the door? I dont see it as such, to me its a feeling of being complete and happy. Some search for it, some find it, some die trying, an theres those that even trick themselves into believeing they had it. You can find it in a smile, in a whisper, in a kiss, but in the end theres no place like home.

Seeing the stars shine as I stare off into the black sky and envision what it is I feel............ lost, alone, loved, hated, or does it matter at all. I dream with a heavy heart that believes in this unending battle it doesnt want to let go of or call a truce too. Does hate even have a reason and if so what is it, I cant find it Ive searched and dont want nor do I desire the feeling. I think love was hard to find and even a harder one to forget, but its beautiful in its purity. Just some random thoughts I have while out in the world losing myself to my feelings, my desires, and my thoughts. Next time you look into the sky take a sec and wonder whos starring up at it and thinking of you too. We truely never are alone.

No matter how many times Ive heard it nothing hurts as much as this does http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ueZz1X--fG4 I dont think there will be any other love that really keeps me so confused, hurt, blind, and pained an yet at the same time make my heart race, my pulse quicken, and my eyes light up.

P.S. I love you

Wow the lengthes we go too hurt the ones we supposedly loved at one point astonishes me. I ask you the ones out there that read this now, if you loved someone even at one point what would possess you to want to make them hurt if they have hurt you?? I guess I ask cause I dont understand, I am not out to hurt anyone if its done then I leave the person alone to move on and try and forget them. No matter the fact that they may fill my every thought or infiltrate my very dreams. I still let them go on and hope for them the very best and that they are happy and smiling. But then there are those that chose to try and hurt more, why you may ask, well thats a good question. You may hurt me more an more and if it makes you feel good to hurt and make me pain for your enjoyment then I only pity you. I pity you that you dont know love nor did you ever and the life you chose to live is an empty one.

An it was a woman I know that told me once that the best way to forget was to stay numb and too stay numb she drank you know what, she was right. So if I am getting my drink on its because I know not any other way to stay numb.

You can be mean and vindictive but whatever it is you are trying to fill to make you feel better wont be filled, it will never go away, love is about forgiveness, love is about letting someone go even if you dont want too an wishing them all the good in the world, love is about smiling for the one you love when they find another even though it may be through tear filled eyes. I love you an thats all I have to say about that.

Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel has always been just a phrase, a thought, or a quip if you will. Never have I been in a dark tunnel falling like Alice into a drab world filled with smiling cats, stoned worms, or vindictive drama queens, only to see a light coming toward me like a savior.

Is there a light out there waiting for us to just reach out and grab hold, or is it all nonsense. Are we destined to tumble head over heels down the hole only to land in a dark lonely abyss? I have come to believe that there is a light but this light is not seen rather it is felt.

Too dance among the stars and walk along the side of something amazing is truely an enlighting thing. Being able to dream again instead of wandering along within a bleak darkness has ways of bringing with it a sense of healing. Smiles are too often overlooked an unappreciated yet when you allow yourself to truely see a persons smile, you can almost feel the warmth that emulates from within. Dont look into someones eyes and not allow yourself to swim to their very depths and see them for their true inner beauty, not whats on the outside. If you do then you go through life numb, unfeeling, an empty, but let it in and your heart will race.

Tis a far better thing that I see and know than to play the fool and stay blind. The truth to which I see is a beautiful sight shadowed only by the affection and bliss that it brings. There are those that come into our lives and they leave a fading image, others leave a lasting impression and then there are those that change the very way our hearts beat. I have come to see that every once in a while even in an ordinary life one can find themselves living within a fairytale. Love is about open arms if you try to close your arms to love you will only be left holding yourself.

I guess I dont know why you bother, does it make you feel better that I am hurting, does it even matter at all?? You have moved on and whether I do or not shouldnt matter. You have your friends, you have your family, you have your boys, and you have POF.

I guess I just dont understand and never will, why you even care how Im feeling. If it mattered to you and you cared then we would be together working it out and trying. Instead we just want to text mean things, email sweet messages, and for some reason dwell on questions like "Is he or she thinking of me?" well do we really want to know? Does it make anything better, does me hurting make you feel better, does my pain make you smile, well you shouldnt need to ask if I think of you, cause the answer will be forever and always YES.

I dont know, you may have loved me or you maybe you never did. But if it makes you feel better to know I love you and miss you then I wont hide that from you. I have said it to anyone that has asked and will always say it but doesnt mean I like hurting for you. See if theres a true love for someone you want only the best for them no matter what has happened. I dont wish you ill, I dont want you to hurt, an I want you only to be happy. I want you to know love and happiness just wish I would have been able to be the one to show you. I am human and will make mistakes but the one thing in my life that wasnt a mistake was marrying you, my mistake there was not giving myself completely to you.

If what you need to hear and want to hear is that i dont spend a single night not thinking of you ...................you have it, I do!

If what you want and need to hear is that I hurt daily wanting you in my arms....................you have that too.

If you need to know that I know I screwed up and that I get it........................I know.

An if you want to know if I regret losing the woman I love.................... then you have all that you need, cause I do!

You think I am not hurting, well if you could see my eyes you would not say that. You think I dont love you, but if you could feel my heart you would know different. You think I am not in pain but if you saw the floor covered with tears for you, you may have a better idea as to how I feel. I may go on but its not cause I want to, I may learn to love again but its not without having to learn to love with a broken heart. A broken heart that still loves you just now I do so with all the tiny pieces that still remain.

You "think" alot about how I feel, if Im in pain, if Im thinking of you or how badly Im hurting, yes you "think" you know. Instead "listen" to how I feel, when I say i am hurting its because I HURT, when I say I dream of you its because I AM, an when I say I love you its because I DO!!!!

I have walked among the ones that live to love, the ones that love to live and the ones that fear both. Only to see that which is neither and all. I have died, lived, loved, an pained but all had its reasons whether known or not. Never let the twilight that falls upon the heart, dim the rays of true loves dawn.